ME

This would probably be the most interesting post ever. I am going to talk about myself. I am going to kill two birds with one big stone. Bird #1: Tis' I, People's Perception. Bird #2: Tis' I, from My Angle.

I have a story like none other. If I say my story is one of the most interesting stories out there, you must believe it because it is true. BUT in here, right now, it's not about my story; it's about me, as a person.

TEMPER

People:

Hey, he has quite a temper. Look at his face.

Me:

I'd like to think that I (generally) have a good temper. However, when things go awry, I tend to get ignited rather easily. I'm trying to better myself in this aspect.

DEMAND

People:

So demanding. Everything must be tip top. WTF...

Me:

I don't think demanding is the right word to describe this trait of mine. It's more of setting my own standard and expectation. I have high expectations of myself and others (depending on situation). I would expect a person to act swiftly and not do something unnecessarily or useless.

Example 1: @Starbucks, ordering coffee. 2 cashier machines. One is busy and another idle. I'd react to that. I will ask why is the 2nd machine not utilised and you (the barista) standing there doing nothing, when there's a queue for coffee.

Example 2: @Restaurant, having a meal. If the food is below par, I'd react to that. I will ask for the waiter and voice my dissatisfaction on the food that was served. I will say that if the restaurant has the audacity to charge such prices on its food, then the food must be of a certain standard. Otherwise, why be in operation at all?

Example 3: @Restaurant, having a meal. If the system for waitering, food delivery and service are horrendous, I will react to that. I will say if you don't know how to operate a restaurant, don't, because it's silly and you're wasting people's time and money to dine at a lousy place. I can tell you for sure that I will never be a patron to your restaurant again.

(I have other examples but that would be a book. So, what I'm trying to say is that I have certain expectation if you portray yourself to be someone or something. So if you're not, don't try to be. You'll only annoy me and in the process, I'll incinerate you with my mouth)

RESPECT

People:

He's rude at times. Very cold too.

Me:

If a person is being unnecessarily difficult, I don't find the need to be nice. Also, to be respected, one needs to learn how to respect. If you don't do the latter, there's no chance in this lifetime that I'll ever respect you.

FIRST IMPRESSION

People:

What an ass! He doesn't even look at people when he talks to them. Look at that proud face. Pompous and arrogant.

Me:

Yes, I admit that I can look hostile when I don't know you. There's no reason for me to be smiling 24/7. I'll look like an idiot. Also, I don't have a reason to look at you if I don't know you. Why would I look at you?? So I just walk straight and look ahead. I walk with my back straight and my head held high. It's for posture and I have to carry a certain demeanour when I'm in public. I can't be goofy. I have a reputation to protect for various reasons.

If you give me a good vibe or positive "chi", then I'll reciprocate. If you act all high and mighty, I will again, incinerate you without even the slightest hesitation. But honestly, when I look at myself in the mirror, I can't seem to reconcile to what others say about me. I look just too adorable.

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ABOUT ME

I fought in school.

I skipped school like nobody's business. I have horrible attendance record in high school. If it rains, you'll know that I'll not be there. It's that predictable.

I drove out from school in the open, under the watchful eyes of the principal. I didn't bother. I just had to get out from there.

I was caned by the principal.

I cheated in my exams a few times.

I hated one person so much that I channeled my energy into ensuring that he was suspended from his job for a period of time (can't disclose more to protect identity).

I did not come from a rich family. We went through some serious tough times. If you think you've been through hell, check with me. Hence, I've promised myself that I'll never have a repeat of that for my family and myself.

I believe that nobody is poor by choice. It's always due to a reason. I have the highest respect for those who can live happy lives despite being financially challenged. I have no respect for rich people that treat others with no respect, or as if they are the most important people in the world. I will tell you off and after that, you'll feel inferior.

I will go all out to help a friend if I believe in that friend.

I like to speak in a crowd, say in a conference or etc. The more people, the better. I like to be "out there". Not attention seeker, but just like the feeling of addressing a huge group of people. I get very excited and I'll go "Pick Me.. Pick Me".

MY CLOSING

Honestly, I think a person should be who he should be. No point pretending to be someone you're not to just fit in. I am telling you all the above so that you'll have a better picture of me. There are so many things to tell but if I do that, it'll be an e-book. I have THAT many stories; of good, of bad, of sad and of happy.

What is there to life, when you are always confined? If there's such thing as a time machine and I can go back to make amends, I wouldn't. I do not want to alter anything from my past actions and my behaviour which have brought me here today. I am here because of who I am, without pretense.